Ready or Not, Here Comes the World!

Ay Caramba!

As my final semester of college draws to a close, I am inclined to notice the fact that the "real" world is closing in on me. This is evidenced by a lack of a future class schedule and by the impending need to find or create employment to provide sustenance for myself.

Surely it can't be all that bad. I mean, I've got a (business) plan. I can get the money coming in. I can make this work. I'm sure of it!.... Aren't I?

I watch the coming events like a Great Eagle approaching to carry me away unbeknownst to me if I am prey or passenger. If I be prey, it will surely mean much stress as I struggle and scramble to gain my footing in the world. If a passenger, I will be carried to new heights and successes that I have not seen before. Obviously, I hope for the latter, but only time will truly tell what destiny I pursue.

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This becomes a time of reflection and prediction, with the hope of yielding direction in my life as to where to go from here. The challenge I have right now is lack of prescience. The veiled nature of the future quickly obscures vision as I attempt to look further into the future.

I am grateful to the Lord for the immense blessings he has given me in providing sustenance and reducing worry in past years of my life, and I expect he will continue to do so. Though I have this comfort, I still find myself restless and uneasy as very significant future events crest the hill that has for so long kept them veiled from my view.

How do I feel about all of this? ...

~ inadequate ~

... Why do I feel this way? Partly because of recent challenges in my life that did not produce what I deemed to be favourable outcomes, and partly for reasons that I either do not know, do not understand, or cannot adequately explain. I must say, though, it is quite frustrating, stressful, and scary, looking forward to a future filled with great uncertainty.

Throughout it all, it is my hope and prayer that Those eyes who have been watching very carefully over me shall not forsake me in the coming months. This next few months (or years) could be a bumpy road, so I guess I'd best latch my seat-belt and prepare for the ride!